Ter-ter-ter

So, basically I don't really type about what's happening. haha. Donno why, maybe because I donno how to start or malasss.

OKAY, first of all, I am now struggling with WHAT I WANT TO BE IN FUTURE. Of course, full time muslim. haha. Eh eh, I thought I wanna be a chef, so I wrote in my diary that I wanna be a chef like Nigella Lawson, but neehhhh, I don't think so. & somehow I feel like being a lawyer but I know it was because my mom was a lawyer, & when it comes to being an engineer, I know it's because my dad is an engineer. But my mom really don't want me to be a doctor. Donno why, but I have a good feeling about being a philosopher, since I love to talk about serious matter. HAHA not really but sometime I DO! Emm, but, for form 4, I was thinking about dropping biology but emm donno! I need seniors advice! The one who is optimistic, haha. I don't want to hear "account was like hell" or whatever sewaktu dengannya. Soo lets see my PMR result. However it would be, I know there's hikmah. Redha, sabar, tabah.

Emm, I don't really understand myself, why did I say that? Because sometimes I can even cry for a small thing and sometimes I just take a deep breath and smile no matter what. So for now I am taking a deep breath and smile no matter what. I am so greatful of what I have right now, everything seems perfect. & I know it's because I am being greatful. Remember, “Jangan menunggu bahagia untuk bersyukur tetapi bersyukurlah maka akan lebih berbahagia.” InsyaAllah. & I know I have made a wise decision by saying ******** to *********.
It sucks at first but I pray for this like... from the start, and Allah makbulkan. Alhamdulillah.

*Anyway, pray for his health. Mudah-mudahan segalanya menjadi lebih mudah. Ikhtiar? Checked. Tawakal? Checked. =)