Assalamualaikum,
I've been doing the same thing since the day I finished Chemistry Paper 3 which was my last paper on 26th of November 2012. For students who dropped Biology and taking RC without adding P.Seni, it was our last day in the school as a student. Yup, I wasn't that sad because I was so happy that SPM is over.
So, the first thing I did when I arrived home was... googling for the university that has opened the application for January intake. At first, my mom asked me to do that because I can postponed PLKN by entering university or college. I applied for UTP, I didn't make it. Of course, it will be real shocking if I make it to UTP. With my poor result, applying for engineering? Thinking about it, if UTP accept me, I am not ready for January intake because I am now physically and mentally weak. Allah knows best.
Two weeks later, I checked on PLKN website, yes I am not going for January intake. I am not sure, is it a good news, or bad news? Isn't it obvious? I've been praying for it to happen and when Allah make it happened, I tend to wish for what I cannot get. Law of attraction? I think this is how syaitans play with me, making me an ungrateful slave of Allah.
Now that I don't have PLKN on January, am I still hoping for January intake? I am not sure about that but I have applied for many private universities and colleges, it cost me a penny. I used my money of course, because my parents would have to pay for the fees later. But honestly, I am mathematically having problem with my finance. It is weird, I used to say "I would never enter IPTS, it doesn't suit me." Now, I end up being extremely impatient about entering U when my trial result is ... Again, why can't I just wait for SPM result? Why am I so afraid of others expectation? Seriously, slap me on the face!
Alhamdulillah, with that knowledge, I realised that, everything I do, I should do it for Allah. Applying for January intake? Is it because of Allah? Wishing for the best result, is it because of Allah? Choosing some particular Univeristies, is it because of Allah? Staying up all night, is it because of Allah? Last but not least, updating this blog, is it because of Allah?
My point is, we know nothing about the future, we can't be sure about what is really good for us. The best way to decide is by setting our niat. Do it because of ALLAH! Ikhlas! Yess, IKHLAS! Pray for me to get this precious gift from Allah. Put Allah first and you will never be the last.
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2 comments:
Assalamualaiku ya ukhti.how are you and your iman?
still remember me?
i love to read your blog.
and you are so matured than me :)
write it more and smile always.
take care!
Waalaikumussalam. Of course i remember. Hehe baru nak reply. Emmm
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