If only..

If only he knows...
But he will never!
Because I wouldn't tell,
What have I put myself into,
In order to work it out.

If only he sees,
What I've become..
What's there ..

Physically, I'm weaker than before, I can't run, I can't jump, I can't play sports anymore, I never was, but this time .. weaker.

But, mentally, I know I've become stronger. I learned to think .. WISER.

I hope Allah will give me the strength to never break my promise to Allah.
NO MATTER WHAT, NO MATTER WHO, NO MATTER WHERE, NO MATTER WHEN..

“It may happen that you hate a thing which is good for you & you love a thing which is bad for you. Allah knoweth, you know not.”

al-Baqarah— 2:216