Assalamualaikum, today was kind of hectic because I have my cousin who just got married. Like always, I am that person who will ensure every guest has the door gift. Alhamdulillah, have been doing this for many years because my Pak Uda got his children married every year. Allah bless his family, InsyaAllah. That is not the only thing, next month, another cousin of mine will get married, Abang Hussein or Hassan. Hemm, I always got their name wrong. I forgot which one is Hassan and which one is Hussein. Whatever it is, Kak Adibah, my Mak Ndak's daughter will get married on this September, 15/9 if I'm not mistaken. & Yes, Ana will get married on September too. So happy for them, may Allah bless their marriage. Subhanallah, and after few months/years, we can see many babies. That would be super nice. MasyaAllah. May Allah give me a pious husband. InsyaAllah. AMIN
Back to the topic, like I said, I've been so lazy for the whole month (Rejab). Syaaban will open it's first curtain and we will meet Ramadhan. InsyaAllah. Allahumma balighna fi ramadhan. Ya Allah, as a Muslim, we must be very excited. Not to forget, I will sit for my SPM trial after Eidul Fitri. May Allah make it easy for all the SPM candidates. May Allah make it easy because He loves us. Some thing looks good in the eyes of the human but Allah knows better what is behind the scenario. Life as we know it, is for Allah to test who is the best in his/her deed among us.
The inspiration has run dry! Need to recharge my imaan! Ya Allah, guide me all the way. Help me with this, it's not about SPM anymore. It's about my pathetic self. What am I to Allah right now? I used cry everytime I heard the Quran recitation, but now? ASK ME SELF? I don't know what else to do. It feels so empty yet distructive. I know all of this happen to me because I've done so many sins. May Allah forgive us. Maybe it happened because I always sleep on Asar. Rasulullah SAW told us about it already, why am I so stubborn?
... and please my dearest friend, stop praising me. =/ It hurts. It really hurts when you know you have done so many sins and Allah All Praises to Him, know about it.. yet the people around you still praising you.
Back to the topic, like I said, I've been so lazy for the whole month (Rejab). Syaaban will open it's first curtain and we will meet Ramadhan. InsyaAllah. Allahumma balighna fi ramadhan. Ya Allah, as a Muslim, we must be very excited. Not to forget, I will sit for my SPM trial after Eidul Fitri. May Allah make it easy for all the SPM candidates. May Allah make it easy because He loves us. Some thing looks good in the eyes of the human but Allah knows better what is behind the scenario. Life as we know it, is for Allah to test who is the best in his/her deed among us.
The inspiration has run dry! Need to recharge my imaan! Ya Allah, guide me all the way. Help me with this, it's not about SPM anymore. It's about my pathetic self. What am I to Allah right now? I used cry everytime I heard the Quran recitation, but now? ASK ME SELF? I don't know what else to do. It feels so empty yet distructive. I know all of this happen to me because I've done so many sins. May Allah forgive us. Maybe it happened because I always sleep on Asar. Rasulullah SAW told us about it already, why am I so stubborn?
... and please my dearest friend, stop praising me. =/ It hurts. It really hurts when you know you have done so many sins and Allah All Praises to Him, know about it.. yet the people around you still praising you.
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