Yesterday

I found myself drowning in the past lately. I missed my school life, trying to go back to old places, listening to songs that I used to listen to. 

If I can be honest, I'd say I miss how I had my mom with me in the past. I used to talk about this a lot, but I retained myself from doing it because everytime I talked about it I would be seen as someone who is in despair, craving for attention, grieving or whatever. I accepted the fact that my mother already went back to where we all belong long time ago. But talking about her made me feel like wanting to live a better life. 

Another thing is, my life had been all about her, I talked about her even when she was alive, and I still like doing it, yet I will get the sad reaction. Why can't I share about my mother anymore, just because she is no longer here. When someone else can do it. I can just do it if I want to, but I don't want people to worry. It is something I think about everyday, but can't talk about it. hmmmm

Now that I wrote about this, I felt better. =)

I really miss how my life was on track when she was around. 

Yes, I just need to talk to God, which something that I didn't do for the past few days/weeks. What am so I busy with? 

hehe. I think I need to get back to blogging, it helps.. to clear my mind.