Lately, my relationship with school books are not so good. But, I will not stop reading, book is like my bestfriend forever. But, school book? Na'ah. I am now reading CINTA DI RUMAH HASSAN AL BANNA. Yup, I should read english book for this month, but I cannot help to not read any good book just because it is in Malay.
So, I'm posting this entry to share something and to motivate myself too. How I am struggling with my laziness when mid-year exam is in less than a month. Allahurabbi. I don't know what to do with my pathetic self, all I have to do is JUST take the book, open it, read it and do some exercises. Instead of doing that, I went downstairs, open the fridge, find some foods and eat it.
What happen to me? I know I'm not the only one who have this kind of feeling. I mean like... I was so hard working for the last few weeks, I washed the clothes, I tidied up my house, cooked, study and helping others without any sigh.
Someone came to me in the masjeed, an old woman. She put her hand on my back and said "Awakni mesti pandai, belajar rajin-rajin". She did that after she's done her prayer. Looks like I was in her prayer. Emmm. & I know, Allah is telling me something. I've done so many sins for the last few years, and also this year. I am really disappointed with myself.
Allah gives me a very good life lately. The truth is, He is testing me. I failed. May Allah forgive me for my sin is like the highest mountain. Pray for me sisters and brothers.
May Allah guide me to the right path. It is really frustrating when you forgot the purpose of living. Too much fun, it brings me further away from Allah. I prefer to be alone without friends but not without Allah. =(
JAZAKUMULLAHUKHAIRANKHATHIRA!
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